Madwoman Out of the Attic

a feminist trudging forward in a patriarchal world

Sunday, June 18, 2006

I'm depressed

Mike got called to be ward clerk a few days ago. I'm pretty bummed about it.

He'll do a great job. He's responsible, sensitive, kind, and has lots of ideas on how to help people in our huge oversized ward. But I feel personally screwed. Yes, I'm being selfish here. Admitted.

Mike will have to be at church 3 hours before church starts every single sunday. Sometimes 4 hours before church starts. Which leaves me alone every Sunday morning to get our soon to be baby ready - alone. We'll drive separately to church every week. I think I'll probably be taking off after Sacrament meeting a lot of the time, since Mike will probably be too tied up with clerking to go to sunday school with me. And really, not to be too mean, but there's really not a lot I get out of SS other than spending time with Mike and hoping that he'll make an intelligent comment here and there.

And then of course, Mike will be esconsed in this room with the three most powerful men in the ward, discussing all the wards successes and failures, all the people who need help and aren't getting it. And Mike will have all these spiritual highs as he prays with them and gives his very reasonable and good advice. And I'll know nothing about it because Mike's too noble to tell me anything that might be considered confidential. No, I'll be home taking care of the baby. Just like a good Mormon woman.


Blogger Dorice said...

Dear Caroline,

I think you can look at it a different way. I promise you that once that baby comes, you'll cherish spending that one on one time with your baby. What will happen is that your husband will be the one who feels left out that he will be missing all of that time with your new son/daughter.

I read that this is your first child so, you can't quite imagine yet how strong and powerful the love that you will have for this child is going to be. You'll cherish your one on one time.

I'm sure you'll miss the hubby being around on Sundays. Get yourself completely ready before you get the baby ready. And I'm a pretty new convert so I can't relate well with the whole scenario, but you'll be so rapped up in this child, that I think it will be easier than you think.

Good luck.

6/19/2006 3:16 PM  
Blogger Caroline said...

Thanks, Dorice.

I hope you're right about not caring that Mike will be gone so much more. At this point it's hard to imagine since a)I'm not really a baby person, so it's hard to imagine wanting a whole lot of one on one time with the baby and b) Mike has been my best friend for so many years I can't imagine not wanting him around as much as possible.

But maybe hormones will kick and I'll turn into a hugely maternal person who is enthralled with the baby. Hope that will be the case.
Thanks again.

6/19/2006 10:23 PM  
Blogger Mabel Maybe said...

Maybe the baby will sleep then. Then you will too. Sleep is good.

6/24/2006 1:32 AM  
Anonymous Francis said...

You arent just kidding you are being selfish.
Besides, the clerk gets kicked out when the real discussions begin. So dont feel like you didnt get any good dirt that he might have.
Ive never seen such a lust for dirt on people before.

6/28/2006 4:31 PM  
Blogger Caroline said...

Thanks Francis :)

6/28/2006 4:55 PM  

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