Madwoman Out of the Attic

a feminist trudging forward in a patriarchal world

Thursday, March 16, 2006

"God Says Yes To Me"

"God Says Yes To Me"
by Kaylin Haught

I asked God if it was ok to be melodramatic
and she said yes
I asked her if it was ok to be short
and she said it sure is
I asked her if I could wear nail polish
or not wear nail polish
and she said honey
she calls me that sometimes
you can do just exactly
what you want to
Thanks God I said
And is it ok if I don't paragraph
my letters
Sweetcakes she said
who knows where she picked that up
what I'm telling you is
Yes Yes Yes

Saturday, March 11, 2006

Boy Child On Its Way

I found out yesterday that we're having a boy. I'm slightly bummed since I had convinced myself it was going to be a girl (wishful thinking). But the little guy looks healthy, so that's fantastic. I'm sure I'll be thrilled with him and adore him when he comes.

This does, however, put the pressure on me next time I get pregnant. Since I really don't plan to have more than two kids, that will probably be my last chance for a girl. I haven't quite figured out why I so strongly want to have a daughter, but I think it might have a lot to do with books. As a parent, I have a strong desire to share with my daughter the books (with strong female characters) that I loved growing up. Reading was a huge part of my childhood. I suppose I can try to share those books with my son, but I'm afraid they won't be as interesting to him. I also am not really in to some of the stereotypical boy things: trucks, trains, loud noises, sports, etc. Though, when I think about it, I'm not in to some stereotypical girl things either: princess stuff, frilly stuff, dolls, cheerleading, etc.

I really had visions of raising up my daughter to be a powerful, intelligent, ethical feminist woman. But now that the boy child is on its way, I will try to adjust my vision to something that is no less imortant or noble: raising up my son to be a powerful, intelligent, ethical feminist man.

Sunday, March 05, 2006

Mission Matron

I've decided that I wouldn't mind becoming a mission matron too much. Mike and I were driving in the car today talking about his mission, and at some point he said that I probably would like being a mission matron. Apparently, they are treated as counselors and can talk with and give advice to missionaries alongside their husbands. They also travel around with the husbands and give lots of talks and some training.

I like the idea of being a mission matron because it sounds so much more active and involved than being a bishop or stake president's wife. It seems like those wives' duties are to keep the home fires burning as the men go off and have tons of meetings, personal appointments, etc. And the part that bothers me the most is that the bishop is not really supposed to tell his wife what he's counseling people about. I absolutely understand the need for ecclesiastical privacy, but it would still be hard for me to know that my husband was expending a lot of mental and emotional effort and time on things that he couldn't talk to me about. I'm afraid I would feel a bit shut out. I wonder how these women handle it...

Of course, by the end of our conversation about me being a mission matron, I had realized that the only way you get to that kind of position is if your man has put in probably decades in bishoprics and stake presidencies. Thank goodness that Mike is now off the fast track for such positions (thanks to me :) )